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Summer is comin' to an end.

So I know school is around a month away, but summer's totally coming to an end! It's gone by so fast and slow. Like I'm either at school or internship, so it's been pretty slow, and since it's been pretty slow, it hit me as such as surpise that it's almost September! I have like 14 days of work left. Maybe less. And I have two projects that I need to complete before I leave. (I'm stressed about this, yet I'm surfing online, oh wells.) One of them, if I don't complete, i GUESS it's okay cuz I can work from my own computer. And the other one, well, I wouldn't really mind if I don't complete it. Who wants do to auditing? Digging up files from 2004 from the warehouse. It's like a huge savenger hunt, and a not-very-fun-one at that. I'll look for stuff, and come across a box from 1988, and I'm like, "Wow! I was born then" and then get depressed cuz I just realized HOW MANY boxes there are. And I learned that banker boxes are not very good chairs. Found 2 boxes of invoices. One box is invoices filed from B-L, another M-Z. So where the heck is A?!? And next friday, my boss and the other intern isn't going to be here, so that means I have to come in and do all commission work which means I can't even work on my projects on Friday.

Anyways, looking foward to school, because I realized that the real-world SUCKS! Waking up early, and stuff. Gosh. And it's only going to get worse. Working at a job that pays too litte, while raising kids, and trying to buy a house/car/yacht/mansion/...trailer/cardboard box (aka shelter!). FUN!!

It’s interesting as I sit here studying and doing work. Going into finals, my highest grade is in a class that I never go (it’s at 9 in the morning). And lowest is a class that I attend fairly often, but never stay awake. Though I attend one class and not the other, the end result is the same: I get anything out of it, one because I’m physically not there and the other because I’m not awake to perceive the information. So is one the highest grade and the other the lowest? Both I would say are moderate easy classes. Perhaps, the class I do not attend, I realize that I’m not there and thus put more effort into learning it on my own. And the class that I do attend, however not conscious during the lecture, I reason that I’m already at lecture and don’t study for it as much. It’s interesting how our brain does stuff like this. How easy it is to trick our brain.

Well, this year’s coming to an end, I guess I have mixed feelings about it. One hand, eager for school to end, but I don’t want to end this college lifestyle and experience. I love living in the dorms, well except for a few weird people that I live with. And I just don’t want freshman year to end. I’ve had so much fun this year. Learned so much about myself. Probably really studied for the first time in my life. Discovered what I like learning about. Discovered that I hate math. Found independence. Maybe took my newly-found freedom a little far. But I sobered-up (literally). And strangely enough, in a few classes, learning was fun. It was weird and new for me to sit in class and be like this is interesting, I want to learn more about it. And enjoyed having intellectual conversations about it. But of course, there’s those classes that you hate with a passion. Well, it’s been a great year. I loved it. But all good things must come to an end. And I think I’m ready to face it. It’s okay, because I know I’ll have just as much fun as this year. And maybe get my act together for school and possibly raise my GPA? Haha. We’ll see. One thing at a time.

College was just so much fun, everything about it. I’m really glad I choose here instead of Irvine. I just don’t think I would have as much as fun there. It’s been a great experience, found a great group of friends, a great team and a great community. Probably going to get all emotional when we move out. *sigh* it’s funny cuz right now I’m listening to “all good things come to an end” by miss furtado. And it’s seriously describing how I feel right now. Like I look forward to going home and high school friend, but I’m gonna miss what I have here. It’s really hard to balance both of them. You get less calls as the year goes on, and you have less time to make calls. It’s sad that you have to lose to gain. It’s hard to find a middle ground.

Well, I thought I would end with some pretty awesome memories:

1. Late nights talking in the dorms. So much fun, talking about serious stuff, talking about nothing, all the same enjoyable.
2. Parties.. some were cool, some weren’t. but it’s always fun to watch drunk people make a fool of themselves.
3. Abby’s party. That was a pretty funny night from what I’ve heard.
4. Tahoe trip. Snowboarded for the first time. Lots of fun. Justin’s awesome cabin. Let’s do it again!
5. Converting Justin into a girl. Hahaha. “do you need a pad?” “no, thanks, I’m good.”
6. Camping trip. The rain. The prank. The bugs. The fire. The fun.
7. Random Frisbee events. So much fun with these girls.
8. Man, there’s too many, I could go on forever.

It’s so hard to say good-bye. Had to say goodbye to so many people today, and it’s just really emotional and tough. It’s really hard to face the fact that you’re probably never going to see some of these people.. or only a few times, as opposed to being with them all the time. Definitely got really emotional. And I think it’s really hard to move-out too. Cuz that’s like.. the finalization of the leaving process. And even though it’s only the summer, I’m going to miss everyone so much. It’s really hard because everyone in the dorm, it’s like you lived with them. You see them every single day, eat together, study together (that is if you choose to study), and all of sudden they’re gone. I’m definitely going to have Davis-withdraw. It’s really really sad. I love everyone here, and though most people are coming back, it’s still not the same.